Dawn of the New Ed

About 12 years ago I was stuck in a rut, standing there with a piece of paper flapping in my pocket (a BA degree), with no clue as to what I should do–or wanted to do–next. So I found some book (for the life of me I can’t remember what it was called) that helped me map out what I liked, what I didin’t like, what I was likely to succeed at, where my interests lay, etc.Out of that came the famous “five year plan“, which basically starts with envisioning who and where you want to be in five years. The plan worked miraculously. It helped me figure out what I wanted, and helped me focus on that. I was able to deflect most distractions and stuff that was not important, or was not bringing me closer to my goals. (Yeah. Goals. For the first time in my life I had real goals.)

OK, that was around 1989, so my five year plan was achieved seven years ago. I built on it for a while, but for the last couple of years I’ve essentially been coasting. Just riding the wave, without thinking about where I really want to be going next.Or, more precisely, coming up blank when I’d think about where I wanted to go next.

This has been scratching at the back of my angst for a while now, but I’m finally doing something about it. I found a new book, “Me, Five Years From Now”, which I hope will be as effective as the last one was.

I highly recommend this approach for people in a rut. It’s a cliche, but if you don’t know where you’re going, you ain’t never gonna get there.

The cool thing about this new book is that you don’t just read advice, you write out your own plan directly into the book. The first part of the plan (for me) is to get healthy. I’m not going to starve myself, but I’m going to make a concious effort to shun crap food, eat more fruit and veg, and get active!

The difference between my saying that today and my saying it last week is that yesterday I went through the process of mapping it out, so it’s now a plan instead of just a vague idea. Once it becomes a plan it’s much easier to follow through.

This plan will grow and will encompass many other things. It’s gonna be good!

Dreamworld

I had a dream last night about me and an ex-girlfriend (who I will call ExGF). ExGF and I were driving an old truck along a dirt road in some rural area. We stopped at a dusty old store for ice cream. We sat on a bench eating the ice cream, and right in front of us was a steep hill that went up about 100 feet. At the top of the hill, right on the edge of the cliff, some people were building a house. All they had up so far was the frame.

It looked kind of shaky and I suddenly felt like it might come crashing down the hill right on top of us. ExGF was sitting on my right, so I said “If that comes down, you go that way (right) and I’ll go this way (left)”. No sooner had I said that when the house collapsed and came tumbling down the hill. I jumped to the left just in time to avoid the cascade of crashing timber, but she wasn’t as quick. She was buried under all the broken 2x4s.

The wood was so smashed up it was almost like straw. I jumped on the pile and started digging. I found her almost right away, and pulled her out, but she wasn’t hurt. She was a little bit dazed, but laughing. She had wood chips in her hair and was brushing the debris off her shirt and she said something like “Hoowee! Where’d THAT come from!”

That dream is so “of” ExGF and I. I’m cautious and vulnerable and always thinking in advance. She’s reckless but invulnerable, as if she has a guardian angel.

I think I had a guardian angel once, but it became a crack addict and moved to Las Vegas.